At last, somebody listens to me!

I am tired and weakened of crying, screaming and suffering. I have already said bad words and even lost the hope. Only the darkness, the bad smell, hateful whispers, howls and dark echoes of bad words and laughter reaches me.

Only when I thought on Jesus and asked him to save me I could see some light.

When I have been here, I was debauched, ironic and stupid man. Many times, I laughed when I could hear my mother, grandmother and aunts speaking on Master Jesus that now as my savior, he aids me, a stupid creature lost into hard pain and that so spoken hell in which I am now. Only after the Master's memory and the immediate help given to me, I could see as it was film, all of the chances and comfort the Father gave me, as support in that existence so important to my spiritual evolution that I left slip.

How much ignorant and imbecile I was.

Many people would like to be in my place. I was a fool noble man, arrogant and selfish to my family, friends and companions. I threw away an incarnation as it was garbage.

The time does not return, just after much pain and suffering.

The money, power, pride, drugs, alcohol, sex, orgies and everything else that drags the individual to terrible darkness that put me in the swamp of tears.

Today I feel, not as a creature that walks, but crawls, embarrassed, afflict, small, sad, with heavy heart and lowed eyes, unable to see the beautiful blue sky that God created and I own never had seen it. Please pray and help me!

Who knows, one day I will be able to see the beautiful sky of my Father.

Luis Claudio, GESJ - 02/06/07 - Public Meeting - Vitoria, ES - Brazil